Breast Reconstruction

This whole experience is more than I could have ever imagined.  I am in the process of undergoing breast reconstruction and I have to tell you, it is more than a notion (thanks Denise.)  The pain of reconstruction is exceptional.  It is physically and psychologically painful.  Physically my skin is stretched until it reaches a breast size I am comfortable with.  Psychologically my mind wants to rush this healing process along and does not like having to wait.  My body will heal when it wants to heal in the time it wants to heal. Meanwhile my mind is saying, "hurry up already!"


This expansion process is bringing about some wonderful life lessons, though.  As I sat at the doctor's office earlier today I was faced with a decision.  It was a split second decision but I thought just for a moment that I did not want my doctor to begin expanding me.  The expansion process hurts.  They are literally inflating a balloon under my skin to make my skin expand and it is uncomfortable. I am wondering why I am allowing myself to go through this pain and affliction and now I am mad at myself.  I am not thinking of my husband and his desire to see me with a little something, something.  All I am thinking about is the immediate in-my-face pain that I feel at the moment.  I am not looking down the road to the end.  I just want to be relieved of my discomfort now!  I don't care that my doctor said this process would take months and that the results would be beautiful.  I just want it all over and I want it over, now. 


Isn't it just like God to show me that the whole process of reconstruction  (rebuilding/making-over) involves some stretching and pain?  Interestingly enough as I struggle with the physical pain of the stretching and pressure, I am also dealing with some relationship reconstruction.  I am in the process of making-over, rebuilding, and reconstructing some damaged relationships.  God is showing me spiritually and naturally what it means to be reconstructed.  He is teaching me that the process may not be easy.  It may even hurt a bit but it is necessary in order to achieve the desired results.  I want to encourage you to get your breasts reconstructed.  You may have had relationships that were once toxic (cancerous) removed but now, as you look to reconstruct your breasts (those things that you hold near) consider the fact that there may be a little pain, stretching, and discomfort but it will only last for a while and is necessary in order to get to the desired result.  We don't like pain but thank God it doesn't last always.


I need to go to bed. 


Until next time,
Tasha